29 November 2024

Waking up to an amusing incident

Last night I had gone off to sleep feeling like a bout of cold was coming on to me. That would not help my situation. I can ill afford to sneeze right now. Sharmila had thoughtfully bundled me away in bed with night cap, throat scarf and all that. She can be a bit loving that way.

Woke up blithe as a lark at 5AM like everyday. Which is about midnight for her. Went to the closet to grab some jackets. Did not bother to put any lights on. Usually the family is fast asleep when I give Tuey and Bogga their morning walk for bathroom break. The jacket hangar swung and hit against the wall and made a sharp noise.

Which woke up Sharmila. Well, physically she got up. But her consciousness was fast asleep. Or, more accurately, trying to get out of the stupor.

She realized that I was fumbling in the dark in the closet. Her mind was still in the mode of “this is an usual morning”.

“Are you going to the gym?” she asked.

Now, lest you forget, I cannot speak. So, there I was, waiting for her to realize that I cannot answer.

Her consciousness was fighting its way to the present. I think it remembered we have three dogs at home.

“Are you giving the dogs a walk?”

I stood there helplessly in the dark looking in her direction in general.

A few more seconds. Her mind was almost there.

“How is your cold feeling?” Obviously, she had recollected last night.

Still no answer from me. For a couple of seconds, I was wondering what to do. You know, I cannot just go in the dark, shake her up and say “I cannot talk.” That would beat the whole purpose.

Finally, she blurted out. “Oh! Sorry. I forgot!”

“Bingo!” I muttered to myself as I walked away.

One more day of adventure begins!

28 November 2024

The “Sinatra” option

The otolaryngologist entered my pre-op area. I had recognized him from a distance and had already waved at him. Like my regular doctor, he is very personable and has a great sense of humor. Instantly, we started talking about Thanksgiving plans and all that.

“So, Mr. Roy, you understand why you are here right?”
“Yes, we will take out the growth in my voice mail box.”
“Indeed”

He explained once again the non-surgical choices I had (including laser) and confirmed that I wanted the surgery.
We went over the chances of things going wrong and what might be the worst case scenarios.

“I am committed, Doctor. Let’s go for it.”

“Okay. We will do the Sinatra option then”

“Sinatra option? What is that?” I asked.

“Well, we take the growth out and seal with nearby tissue in a way that if Frank Sinatra had come here, he would be singing back on stage in two weeks’ time”.

“Sinatra option it is, then Doctor”.

For my Bengali friends: সেই থেকে আমি হন্যে হয়ে একটা গানের মাস্টার খুঁজছি !!

(For the Bengali challenged: I have been looking for a music teacher ever since)

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28 November 2024

Lessons in Silence on Day 0

1. Dogs care very little about hand signals or sign language
2. After I am thru, my family can take any of your families in a game of Charades.
3. Salad places like Salata are completely out. (this is where you have to pick each ingredient in your salad)
4. Some of my friends are not doing the math before calling me to wish me a speedy recovery
5. I am very scared to go to the airport now. If I see something, what should I do?

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28 November 2024

Silence as an opportunity?

Imagine this… you have to stay completely silent for 2 weeks. This is not like your silent retreat kind of thing. You are home. Free to go around doing your usual stuff at home and office as long you do not use your vocal chords. This is due to a medical surgery – but you are guaranteed full recovery at the end of it. So, you do not have to worry about health complications from this.

Well, this is what I am going thru.

Of course, being silent means I have to slow things down. Also, I have a bit of extra time at hand since I cannot do any strenuous physical exercises – so no running or gym and all that.

Now, my question is – how would you use this as an opportunity? What are some of the ideas you have for me that I can use this to come out with a better version of me?

So far, I have started learning ASL. What else?

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20 November 2024

Book Review: The Unaccountability Machine by Dan Davies

“Why big systems make terrible decisions – and how the world lost its mind”

This is a freshly published book (just came out a few months back) and still not available in the digital version. I had to get my hard copy delivered from Great Britain.

It is a fairly dense and interesting book.

It basically establishes the concept of “accountability sinks”. How post war, certain systems came of being where effective walls were built such that no one could be held accountable. It starts with the story of the airline passenger who got bumped off his seat but cannot talk to any manager because it is not there in their “policies”. By citing something as a “policy”, management can effectively shirk from accountability that is required in exception cases. (Policies are still required for 99.99% of the cases).

It talks of how the financial system has effectively created many accountability sinks which has led it to behave for short term gains till the whole system collapses upon itself – as we have seen in the many financial crises and then the average taxpayer is left with the burden.

It talks about how government and politicians have created accountability sinks – e.g. different agencies, where any economic disaster can be blamed on the Fed (or central banks) whereas people vote their government directly to fix their problems in the economy.

The book shines a particular spotlight on how the Private Equity firms are creating havoc by behaving in a short term way by leveraging debt-laden buyouts. He points to how companies post war went from being a lot more employee and society conscious (they were big then too but short term profit was only one of the motives) to today’s world where shareholder value is the sole motive backed by Friedman’s philosophies.

He also directs a lot of his ire towards economists in general, Friedman in particular, who he says tries endlessly to fit the world into their pre-conceived models rather than the other way round.

He points out how globalization, outsourcing and such constructs completely broke down the information flow and led to further short term behaviors by companies.

Finally, he explains this rise of the investor class has created a deep schism in the society where nobody needs to take accountability for the real challenges of the common person. He points to how this has created a sense of helplessness and anger, how news channels like Fox figured out how to productize that rage and sell it and the eventual rise of populist leaders like Trump or Modi. This, he says is nothing but a cry from that populace for help.

Dan, an ardent student of cybernetics, uses a lot of concepts from the science of cybernetics (which kind of faded away once technology took over) to explain how to think of what is happening in the various systems. I, for one, learnt the contribution of Stafford Beers for the first time. I loved one quote of Beers where he laments that when we discovered fast information processing systems like computers, instead of using that increased information flow to rethink systems (e.g. management structures) that were built in the previous two hundred years, we applied them to do accounting (crunch numbers). He compares this to getting Einstein, Feynman and the likes to a room and see if they can figure out how to count sheep in a field faster than a shepherd can do today – or something like that!

Whether you agree to his views or not, the author will make you think. Again, a fairly deep book and deserving of a second read. But a dense book – especially the concepts of cybernetics needs careful understanding. So, give yourself some time if you pick this book up.

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11 November 2024

Some old numbers from K.L. Saigal

Listening to his songs, I was reading up about his life and learnt a lot. For one thing, I did not know that the epicenter of Hindi movies was Calcutta before it moved to Bombay. Apparently, he sang under the name Saigal Kashmiri (he was born in Jammu) for the first few movies before changing it to his real name – Kundan Lal – but used his initials. He died at the age of 43, a few months before India got its independence. His death was due to his alcoholism, the records indicate.

Interestingly, before becoming a singer-actor, he was a railway timekeeper for some time (did not finish school), then a typewriter salesman and then a hotel manager!

Growing up, we heard quite a few of his Bengali songs. That was a language he picked up much later in his life.

10 November 2024

This book could have been alternately titled “A guide to Hysteresis Curve”

This Saturday, there was not much action in Farmers’ Market. Most of the vegetable folks were missing due to the cold weather. Picked up this book from a coffee stand.

Purportedly this will bring my experiments in coffee and mixology together. Wonder what lack of barista skills added to lack of bartender skills sum up to.

Will try a drink this evening. Would be interesting to see if the alcohol makes me sleepy or the coffee keeps me awake!!

2 November 2024

Saturday music evening… after a really long time

“যেমন করে মেঘ যায় গো উড়ে
যেমন করে সে হাওয়ায় ভাসে
কই, তাহার মতো তুমি আমার স্বপ্নে কভু ভাসো না তো
অলির কথা শুনে বকুল হাসে
কই, তাহার মতো তুমি আমার কথা শুনে হাসো না তো”

Like the way the clouds float by
Like the way they waft into the winds
How come you never shimmer into my dreams
But in the same way?

Like the ways the bees’ humming words
Drive the flowers to endless chortle
How come you never laugh at my own words
But in the same way?